Reporting live, 2 am and I have an early morning meeting but I have been MIA for a little while, its starting to haunt me because I love it here.

A lot, plenty, more has been happening and boy do I have all the juice, with just my birthday around the corner, I am glad to say that this has been a year that introduced me to my superpowers, I didnt know I could eat while I walk, I knew I had it in me but I never tested the theory until I had to balance life. the other superpower lies in my chest, I have a big heart, I met it a couple of times, its a brave organ I carry and for some reason its not exhausted like I am, the organ is at the right place, it actually still does feel.

Went from surgery to driving longer distances, to perfecting my academics (this is a struggle I am yet to testify about) starting a business and making women decisions and those are hard to make, I am not referring to choosing which outfit to wear or heels that goes with my bag, I am more on the emotional and mental life changing decisions.

One being able to let go when I feel overwhelmed, I am not 15 anymore, this “Fighting every battle” mentality is not good for my health, I dont want a mini stroke so I just let people say what they say, do what they do, I just want to get to my place, drink my lemon and herbs while I have a few conversations about everything with people that actually are for me, its been a joy.

My other superpower is being able to love the woman I am becoming, she is very calm this one, she is healed, she is thick, she is beautiful and lately, the walls have been breaking, very honest, left the baggage in the past where it belong, the weight is lighter now and so are the people helping me carry it.

of course life happens, the other day I caught myself crying, on the floor, kneeling in the office, wondering how in the world will certain doors open and then I remembered who I was, before that my hands hurt from pressing against gravity, my tears hit the ground and with every drop I felt liberated, more human, I cant remember the last time I allowed myself to be human, be real and not control this emotions driving me insane, I felt everything, the pain, the anxiety, the defeat but I am my grandmothers daughter, I traded the sorrow for rejoicing, its a hard art to master, turning toxic waste into a garden.

I see you.

I see every broken watch entry there is, of people from different places, dealing with hurt, dealing with regrets, trying to forgive themselves while they fix their mistakes, its never easy but look at you doing it everyday, in depression and loss but look at what your strong soul is breaking, years or months of betrayal and never have you returned the same treatment, you are strong love.

I see you.

and the tears you cry behind closed doors, I see you coming back to try again, you inspire and speak life, though words sometimes cant escape your mouth, you speak to the dry bones till flesh grows on them and they stand into an army.

I see you trying to trust, heal your inner child, go through the failure, starting over, raising a child alone, searching for love, accepting love, the smile after the storm…I see it too, because you and I are human and we need to learn to be safe place to ourselves too like we have been a home to many.

BE KIND TO YOURSELF, LIVE PLEASE LIVE

when you get a chance, LOVE

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