A partner who understands your backround is a blessing.

Some people have gathered from my blog that I was one of the many who were born not with not so much in their parents bank account or even livestock to make a living. The thoughts of being disadvantaged sometimes bring horror and hurt, sometimes they make a person bitter for people who have had enough which is what I pray to God to everyday, that I may never look at those who had better and jealousy forms in my heart, that I may not look at them and think they know nothing about struggle, that’s why when someone even begins to think I have bitterness towards people who had it better gets me to a dark place, a place I am fighting not to be in, because they don’t know the fight I have put in to accept my backround and fight for better.

However my main battle is the side effects of survival and struggle

Allowing myself to work on me and nor where I have been, the truth is is before I have to look at myself, the clothes I wear, the food I eat, the work I do, I look at my family first, to take them out of the hurt and the struggle.

Before I buy a car, I buy a few groceries, before I buy a house, I take care of my parents own, before I buy an expensive weave or new shoes, I look at what they do not have and I wonder if the weave is worthy. So if you don’t see an IPhone, If you don’t see Peruvian or Brazilian weave or long nails or new shoes, know that my family is fed, if I could, I would change it and because I want to change it, I work on it every day, When they put in 50% of the work because they know they have something to fa back on, like their parents money, I put 100% work in because that’s what my parents couldn’t give so I can’t afford not to.

Now a partner who understands that my wife, my girlfriend can’t afford the fancy dress, fancy shoes, fancy phone, top quality Instagram pictures because she is taking care of many people than herself is a blessing, a partner who sees the efforts, inner battles and needs of their significant other is a blessing.

To any woman who has ever had to out her needs to the side, every woman who went to school, starved and brought back the degree, to every woman who never got a sugar daddy to get the things she desires, to every woman who was cheated on because she couldn’t afford to put manicure on her fingers and long luxuries hair wihh beautiful Instagram pictures. I AM SORRY SIS AND YOU WILL MAKE IT