About 2 am, I was awake and I was filled with joy.

Trust me when I tell you that not everything has been going my way, I still have things I am working on and with everything happening in the world, it’s not really easy having joy at 2 am.

But you see, happiness is a choice, a choice that has been hard to make.

People lost their jobs, every week someone dies, humanity as we know it is facing fear but I chose joy.

I have been down with the fever, even though I am feeling much more better, my voice is still gone, I have cold sore on my lower lip, to sum it up, I LOOK AWEFUL RIGHT NOW. I still choose joy because I deserve it!

Last year in August, my uncle was found murdered and even today justice has not been served, it marks a year now and we still have questions but I still choose to be happy.

God has kept my family together, I am still working on my career, God is opening doors for me and even though I don’t see it sometimes, but ALL THINGS ARE WORKING FOR MY GOOD and it’s hard to see it someday when battles try to get me on my knees and once more I find myself crying to God, Once more I find myself struggling to explain thoughts in my head, once more I find myself starting from the bottom because I don’t have rich parents, or an enheritance or any other source to run to but REST IN KNOWING GOD GOT Me. That’s a lot, that need certain amount of faith.

I still choose to be happy

I know that someone might be reading this and they just lost their job, they just lost money as production had to stop, they just lost a parent, a child, someone is reading this and they were crying last night, suicide thoughts, anxiety or maybe low self esteem from rejection and disappointment BUT YOU NOT STAY IN THAT DARK PLACE FOREVER.

Wake up everyday and still choose to be happy, some days are. Better than the rest when on other days you will be at your lowest still choose to feel good.

You deserve it.

You deserve it.

You deserve it.

You deserve peace in the storm, choose to believe you do.

You deserve to know that this also will past, start living like you are walking out of it.

Choose to give away all that stress, choose to never allow it be a part of you.

You deserve the