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I LOVE IT ALREADY

Happy New Year, my friend. Yes, I know I am late. By now, you are probably tired of hearing “Compliments of the New Year,” but I still want to send my heartfelt wishes your way. I hope this year brings you joy in abundance. I pray you soar in love and find yourself embraced by peace. I love this for you and I want you to believe it for yourself.

This is your year. Go back and try again where you have failed before. Pick up the things that once defeated you. This time, you will win. This year is different. It is restorative. What was lost will be restored and there will be plenty. Trust me, you will not lack. You will not bury a loved one. You will not feel alone. Love will find your heart after pain. Your heart, once numb and cold, will come alive again. It will beat with purpose and joy, more than just pumping blood to keep you going.

As for me, I love 2025 already. It started with hard truths that I could not avoid. Truth hurts, but it also sets you free. I am lighter now because I faced it.

We all carry questions about life. We wonder about family, careers, and the plans we make. We ask why some things do not work out the way we hope. Despite our achievements, there are voids that linger, leaving us curious about our place in the world. We wonder how others see us and whether they view us as blessings. It is a strange feeling to discover that not everyone does.

But that is also a moment of clarity. It is when you stop living for others and start living for yourself. I pray you never find yourself trapped in someone else’s expectations. Do not waste your life trying to please people who will always find fault. This year, choose to live your truth. Forget what they say or expect. Their opinions will change, but your life is yours to live.

For me, 2025 is all about stepping into a new season. Money flows to me effortlessly. I am never lacking. I have enough to take care of myself and plenty to share with others. This year looks good on me. I am checking off every goal with ease. I am excelling in all that I do, producing excellent results with grace.

I am the right choice in every room I walk into. Opportunities are drawn to me. My destiny helpers are everywhere, always ready to lift me when I need it. Love surrounds me completely. It is the kind of love that heals and restores. It is safe, secure, and pure. It brings me closer to God and helps me see the beauty in myself and the world.

This year is going to be exciting, a little scary, and completely powerful. I am ready for all of it.

Challenges will come, as they always do. They will test your faith and your patience. When that happens, lean into who God is. Read the Word and learn more about the King of Glory. Believe in His plans for you and trust that you deserve the blessings coming your way.

This year, you will see many happy moments from me. I hope to see just as many from you.

No matter what happens, hold on to God. He is the anchor and the one who restores all things. Here is to 2025, a year of fresh starts and big wins. Let us embrace it fully and make it count.

DO NOT LET GO OF GOD

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It’s a pretty rare happiness that i know

This might be a little long but I am at a point where I feel like people knowing my truth is the beginning of me living, no more cropping, editing or filtering, the picture is perfect AND I LOVE IT HERE

It’s 02:30am on a Saturday morning, and I just finished cleaning my apartment. My brother is visiting, and I know if he finds it dirty, he won’t respect it or me the way I hope he will. I started cleaning at 6:30 p.m., and as I was cleaning I was also listening to sermons by Pastor Stephanie Ike Okafor. Her sermons have been playing nonstop, and I thank God for using her to share His word which came as a conformation in my life, God has a beautiful way of reaching to us.

As I am cleaning, I found myself asking God questions, questions that came from a place of doubt and insecurity. I wondered, “Have I lived enough?” It was a silly thought, but it came from something I noticed earlier in the day while scrolling through WhatsApp statuses. I saw my colleagues at a work function, a closing party. They were singing along to amapiano songs, word for word, smoking hubbly, and sitting in circles. They seemed to be having fun and I knew immediately that if I was there, I would be a spoilsport.

And there I was, realising I wouldn’t fit in. I don’t know the lyrics to any amapiano songs. I’m allergic to nicotine, so I couldn’t sit in a hubbly circle. I couldn’t even imagine dressing the way they did and they looked beautiful but that’s not me. But even with all this, I still felt bad like something was wrong with me for not fitting in.

For years, I’ve struggled with this feeling of not belonging. I’ve tried to fit into crowds, which led me to people-please. I would downplay my love for God, hoping that if I seemed more like everyone else, they would accept me. I just wanted to be seen. But I was going about it the wrong way.

Thank God for His Word. Through these sermons, I was reminded that my identity is in God, not in the world. I don’t need to fit in with others because I belong to Him. In John 15:19, Jesus said, “If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world.” That verse reminded me that it’s okay to be different because God has set me apart.

Someone asked me recently why I only write about God and love, and not about things like drugs, sex, or nightlife, the things they said are “exciting.” My answer was simple: I don’t know anything about those things. For years, I felt bad about that, like knowing only God wasn’t enough. I thought I needed to know how to flirt, party, down shots, be cool like but or sin just enough to relate to people. I thought I needed to write about those things to seem cool. But this year, God has been working on my heart. He’s showing me that knowing Him is all I need.

I’m not perfect. I struggle with faith, sin, and self-esteem like everyone else. Sometimes God tells me to do one thing, and I do the opposite. But even in my weaknesses, God’s grace is enough for me. Isaiah 43:1 says, “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are mine.” That’s who I am, God’s baby girl. Fragile, cautious, and sensitive, but His. And that’s enough for me.

So, to anyone reading this, I won’t apologise for not fitting in. I won’t write about things I don’t know. What I will write about is God’s work in my life, how He corrects me, speaks to me, and reveals Himself to me. I’ll write about the things I love: academics, art, photography, books, and the life God is shaping for me. One day, I’ll share stories about being a wife and mom, and you’ll see how God is still working in my life.

I can’t give you gossip, updates on the latest trends, or wild stories. But I can give you honesty about my life and in my life, God is at the centre of everything. Philippians 1:6 says, “He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” I’m still a work in progress, and that’s okay.

So, please stop asking me to go clubbing or hang out at car washes…I won’t go. Don’t expect me to know the latest music or fashion trends. I am clueless, I am not interested, I just want to watch Kdrama on weekends, do my laundry, read a book, journal, enjoy filling in colours on my colouring book, watch Tik Tok, listen to sermons, take walks, listen to music, and I’m finally okay with that. I’m a little boring, a little weird, and a lot of “Miss Goody Two-Shoes.” But that’s who God made me to be, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Now, I know this is not fancy but that’s my truth and I would want you love me for who I am not and I wouldn’t want to live up to an idea of me that I created to fit in

Merry Christmas, and may God bless you in everything.

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Happy Birthday to me

This month, my birth month, I feel an overwhelming sense of gratitude and joy. Today, I woke up with my heart full of thanks. I am here. I am blessed. I know my life is a testimony, a story that speaks of God’s grace and love.

Growing up, I didn’t have wealth or status, if anyhting they made fun of our household, a family of plenty that lived in a huge shack, God turned that huge shack into a big house, I thank Him everyday. My childhood was simple, filled with small joys and big dreams. I remember being nine years old at my aunt’s graduation. I didn’t fully understand what a graduation meant, but I could feel the pride and excitement in the room. Right then, I knew I wanted that feeling too, I wanted more . I just didn’t realise how much sacrifice, hard work, and self-discipline it would take to reach it. Now, standing where I am, I thank God for every bit of perseverance He has given me and for blessing me with a kind heart.

For anyone who knows me, kindness and gentleness are constants. I’ll smile at you even if I know what’s been said about me. I’ll give love, even when it’s rejected. I didn’t learn this alone but from the beautiful, God-fearing women who raised me. We didn’t always have much, but we had love. I watched my aunts and cousins share even the smallest things with one another. In those moments, I learned that love is enough.

Sometimes, I’ve felt disappointed, expecting that same love from others. But I’ve come to see it as a gift to be soft in a world that can be so hard, to be kind when hate is everywhere. This is a blessing.

As November 22, my birthday, approaches, I look at my life and am overwhelmed by how far God has brought me. When I sit in my car, I thank God because there was a time when owning a car seemed like a distant dream. Sitting in my own apartment feels like a miracle. Being a Master’s candidate, pursuing a dream I once thought was out of reach these are blessings I never saw coming.

There was a time when I thought my story might end in disappointment, especially after failing matric. But God had a different story for me, and He’s still writing chapters I never expected. I’m learning to accept the blessings around me, to live fully in this reality, and to trust that God has even more for me.

Here’s to more years of learning, of loving, and of living with a grateful heart. Thank you, Lord, for this life, this testimony. Here’s to all the moments yet to come.

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Surrendering to God’s Gentle Protection

This might be the last post for October, and I pray to God that I can be as open and vulnerable as I need to be. Over the past few weeks, I’ve dedicated several writings to the Holy Spirit, even though it wasn’t as consistent as I had hoped. Life has been busy, with reports, AGMs, conferences, and submissions keeping me on my toes. But through it all, I remain steadfast, made of steel. So please, bear with me as I share from my heart.

To you reading this, I pray God’s everlasting love, joy, and peace surround you. I pray that you never doubt His presence in your life, His faithfulness, or His care. Know this: God answers. He is present in the moments that matter most, and He loves you deeply. I encourage you to surrender, release your pride, your need for control, and let God take the lead. From the time you wake up in the morning to when you lay your head down at night, may He fill your heart with the desires He has placed inside you. May your life be full of the love, joy, and happiness that only God can give.

These days, standing boldly in the Word of God is no easy task. The world tries to sway us, but I pray for your strength. I pray that you are filled with courage, that you stand tall as a child of God, unafraid to proclaim His name. “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9).

I pray that the prophetic anointing over my life flows into yours. May it run like oil, bringing vision, clarity, and direction. I speak the spirit of prophecy over you, may you see what others cannot see, may you speak with divine accuracy, and may you dream dreams that carry the mysteries of heaven. May the atmosphere shift to work in your favor because the Holy Spirit is leading you. God has called us to be ahead of time, to be informed of what’s to come so that we are never caught off guard. That is your inheritance as a child of God. Receive it.

And if your heart is fragile, like mine, know that I understand. I recently found myself asking God if I should stop caring so much, begging Him to make my heart hard, to numb the pain of disappointment and the sting of indifference. But in His gentle way, the Holy Spirit ministered to me through a sermon by Ms. Jackie Hill Perry. She shared how she, too, had built walls around her heart, believing she had to protect herself. But the Holy Spirit said to her, ““Jackie you know that your guardedness is there because your trauma has trained you to believe that you are the only one that can protect yourself, I will fight for you even emotionally I will vindicate you against people, you don’t have to guard your heart at all times because I am a defender of my people”

Those words hit me deeply. For so long, I’ve believed that if anyone posed a threat to my peace or disregarded my feelings, I needed to fight for myself, to protect my heart at all costs. I’ve been the one to apologise, to go the extra mile to make things right. But through this, I’ve learned that people are not always like me, and that’s okay. God is my defender. He guards the heart He gave me, a heart that loves deeply, feels deeply, and gives deeply.

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still” (Exodus 14:14).
This soft heart of mine, the one that sometimes feels like a burden, is not a mistake. God made it this way for a reason, and He will protect it. He will fight the battles I’ve spent too long fighting on my own. And if you’re like me, if you’ve struggled with this same fragility, I pray that you come to understand that God is also defending you. You are not too soft. You are exactly who He made you to be.

I’m grateful for the people God is placing in my life who hear me differently, who handle my heart with care, and who, like me, are persistent in love. God knows what He is doing, and I trust Him to continue working in ways that go beyond my understanding.

As I end this post, know that it has been a joy sharing with you about the Holy Spirit and hearing your perspectives as well. I pray this month has been as transformative for you as it has been for me. God is always speaking—may we continue to listen.

I love you all. Stay blessed.

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FEELINGS

I grew up believing that all sinners go to hell, and to avoid it, you had to follow the Ten Commandments and fear God. As I became an adult, before , long ago living a lukewarm Christian life, I realised something important: I feared hell more than I desired a relationship with God. I went to church and tried to live righteously, but my motivation was to avoid punishment, not to truly know Him. To me, God seemed distant, an immense, powerful being on His throne in heaven, answering prayers and sending challenges.

Not long ago, I asked the Holy Spirit to help me understand who He really is. Gradually, my prayers became more like conversations. I used to approach God with a formal attitude, carefully choosing words of praise, almost as if to soften Him before making my requests. I didn’t truly understand the Kingdom of Heaven because I didn’t have a relationship with its King. So, I began to open my heart in prayer. I wanted to take off the mask, I no longer wanted to sound strong or holy. I wanted to speak honestly, like a child talking to their Father and Friend.

Strangely, I began to desire a relationship with the Holy Spirit as if He were my older brother. I had always wondered what it would be like to have a big brother, someone to stand by me and have my back. That’s exactly what the Holy Spirit became.

Did you know that the Holy Spirit was sent to be your Comforter? God knew you wouldn’t always be happy or joyful. He knew there would be moments when your heart would break, and you’d need emotional support. The Holy Spirit is with you even in your darkest moments, especially when you can’t even find the words to pray. He helps you pray (Romans 8:26). Jesus Himself wept when His friend died (John 11:35), and He was angry when the temple was turned into a marketplace (John 2:13-16). It’s okay to feel, to grieve, to celebrate, to love, and to take pride in your accomplishments. Many Christians are hesitant to celebrate the blessings God has given them, thinking it’s more humble to stay quiet. But no! Celebrate. Be joyful and grateful for your victories, and get used to winning because you are a child of the living God. Don’t be afraid to feel.

I want to thank the Holy Spirit publicly for teaching me about feelings over these past few days. There’s no point in hiding how I feel from Him, He already knows my heart and my deepest thoughts (Psalm 139:2). I’ve been learning to love the Holy Spirit, and surprisingly, I’m also learning that I deserve to receive love in return. So often, people who give forget that they are worthy of receiving too. The Holy Spirit has given me so much contentment, protection, comfort, and joy that I’ve become more open about my emotions. I talk to Him about my bad days, my good days, and even the struggles in my mind. He understands my fears, and I’ve realised it’s okay to be curious, to need rest, to fall in love.

He hears our hearts when our words fail (Psalm 56:8).

What your heart feels is important, take down those walls you have built from God because you thought He wont handle something as small as your feelings. Yes, the maker of the universe is concerned about what is concerning you. I hope you understand that its okay to grieve, celebrate, get angry, care, be happy, fall in love or even cry

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I can handle you

(To everyone who has felt like they are too hard to handle, the holy spirit is FOR YOU)

I came back home, guns blazing, ready for war.
Things have been chaotic, and now, I feel the madness creeping in.
I don’t want anyone around when I’m like this, no one stays anyway,
And I get it. It’s too much, even for me.

Lately, I’ve been dreaming of disappearing,
Of finding a place where no one can reach me.
I hate admitting how much its all frustrating, I am seeking for an escape
And no matter what I do, I can’t seem to get a grip.
It scares me, this fight I’m in, I don’t know when to stop, What worse…I don’t know how to stop
so much that my knees grow weak, and my will is fading, my sweat is turning into blood, my heart is working overtime keeping my pulse.

I’ve been reckless, changing lanes at 160 on a 100.
It’s a miracle I’m still here.
Too many close calls, like I’m testing God.
I feel most alive when my life’s on the line.
I hate it here, A battle between my mind and faith. feels like these thoughts consume me.
They don’t reflect the God I believe in.
I should know better, but the voices in my head scream louder than my faith.

The more I dwell on my inability to fight like a Christian,
The more I fear falling to my knees again.
I imagine God saying, “Here we go again, same old story.”

I’m a contradiction.
One moment, I shout, “There are no broken pieces here!”
The next, I’m drowning in my own tears and fears.
One minute, I’m raising a glass with friends, “Cheers!”
The next, I’m speaking to empty chairs. All the women inside of me are scared of me at this point

Call me Harley Quinn, but there are no jokes here. This is not a comic book, these are not just words.

We all need someone who stays,
Someone to stand by our side,
But the world doesn’t work that way.
People have conditions.
People can’t handle our walls.
When family crumbles and I fall apart,
That’s too much for them.

Just when I feel too much to handle,
The Spirit whispers, “I can handle you.”

The Holy Spirit says:

“I don’t just handle you, I see you.
And not only do I see you, but you make sense.
You’re never too much.
I’m not like man, I won’t turn away.
I am your Comforter, your Friend.
I am the One who gives you rest when your heart is heavy,
And joy in the morning.
I stay.
I stay when you don’t have time for Me.
I stay because I know your heart.
You are not what you go through,
Or what you think is wrong with you.
I can handle you, and I always have.
You are never too much for Me.”

This is for the women hoping for someone to stay, The men searching for someone who will understand them
For someone who won’t find them too much
Who sees the parts they whisper in prayer,
Begging God to fix.
The Holy Spirit can handle you,
You’re not too much.
You’re not too vulnerable or too sensitive.
You are God’s creation, and you are very good.
Your Father approves of you.

You think you are too much? even too much is not enough…He can handle you, LET HIM

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happy New Month

The past few days have been bitterly cold here in the Free State, and today was no different. I thought long and hard about what to wear and finally settled on my trusty jeans, paired with my red jacket and combat boots, and off I went. Lately, I’ve been longing to get my hair braided, but this weather has kept me away from the salon, the thought of having cold water running down my head sends shivers through me. So for now, I’ll keep rocking my curly weave until it’s warm enough for those braids. This morning, I reached for my first pair of jeans, only to find the zipper broken. I tried another pair, but they tore on the side. My conclusion? My jeans have definitely shrunk. Of course, I’m blaming the washing machine! I didn’t beat myself up about it. I didn’t criticise my body or cry about my weight, I just need to join the gym, or have a routine and we will be okay to go, I am learning how to be gentle with me so I accepted it with grace, made the best of what I had, and moved on.

Last month was a hard one for me. I cried more than I would have liked to admit. Things were happening all around me, and I often felt like I was barely treading water. But I kept swimming, even when I was running on empty. One of my biggest challenges is that I don’t always open up deeply about what I’m going through, I tend to share only the highlights, thinking that’s enough. But deep down, I knew I was carrying more than I let on. So this month, I had a heart-to-heart with God and the many women within me, and we made a decision: we’re going to let go, relax, and trust that God has it all under control. Even though there is much to do at work and with our studies, we will handle it all with grace. its safe to say we adjourned the meeting in good terms, my soul, my mind, my heart and God are all in sync (its amazing how a sincere conversation with God changes everything)

As we step into October, I hope you take a moment to slow down, just as I’m trying to. I hope you give yourself permission to make mistakes and take everything one step at a time. I’ve always been in a rush, whether driving or walking, I’m constantly on the go. But this month, I pray that God blesses you with people who will teach you how to walk slow, how to find peace in the stillness. If you’re like me and feel the need to get everything done at once, I pray God sends you the kind of help that comes with humility, kindness, and true support, the kind of help that lifts you up without needing recognition.

Be gentle with yourself this month. You’re doing the best you can with what you have, and I pray God provides you with all the resources and support you need. May you never feel alone or stranded. May you always have more reasons to rejoice than to cry, and may you never have to carry life’s burdens on your own. Just as Jesus had help carrying the cross, may you always have someone by your side to share the load when things get heavy.

I pray that this new month brings an overflow of God’s grace upon your life. May you be covered in grace so abundant that it shields and protects you from the things you cannot see. From the words spoken in places you’ve never been, from the plans meant to harm you, may God’s grace cover you completely.

I pray that God fulfills your wildest dreams, the ones you think are too big or too crazy. May He show you that nothing is impossible for Him, and may He exceed all your expectations. May you witness doors opening for you in unimaginable ways, may people of influence take notice of you, and may you be surrounded by those who value and respect you. As you go in and out this month, know that you are blessed, know that you are loved.

Here’s to a beautiful October filled with grace, joy, and peace.

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This is your truth

I don’t know who needs to hear this today, but I know my God is intentional, you didn’t come across this by mistake. Let me remind you of this, in case the devil has been working on your mind lately and you’ve forgotten: God is madly in love with you. His love for you is deep and unchanging. There is nowhere you can go where God won’t find you, no mistake you can make that will separate you from His love. Nothing! neither heaven nor hell can change His mind about you.

(“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:38-39)

There is no sin too great for Him to forgive, no disease He cannot heal, no amount of shame He cannot take away. God is for you, and He will always be for you. His love is real, and it covers your every flaw. Your Father thought you were worth dying for, so He gave His Son because He believes in you. But He didn’t stop there, He gave you power and dominion over the living and the dead, and He commanded that the same Spirit that raised Jesus from the dead live inside of you.

(“But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8)

The enemy will try to make you feel forgotten, but don’t let him. You are always in God’s thoughts. He doesn’t sleep nor slumber because He’s always watching over you. The devil can never undo what God has spoken over your life. You are blessed, and that’s the truth. The only time the curse takes root is when you believe it more than the blessing. Often, we listen to the lies of the enemy more than the truth of God’s Word, and that’s how he gets a foothold in our lives.

“No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment, you shall condemn.” (Isaiah 54:17)

Yes, the weapons may be formed, but they will not prosper. God saw you as a part of His creation from the beginning. The stars, the galaxies, the mountains, and seas were all created, yet He still needed you to complete His perfect creation. Don’t let the devil convince you otherwise. You are a reflection of God Himself.

(“So God created mankind in His own image, in the image of God He created them; male and female He created them.” (Genesis 1:27))

The enemy will try to get you to doubt God’s provision and promises. He will make you think your situation is permanent. But remember this: God’s Word is living and powerful, sharper than any two-edged sword. Speak it over your life, speak it against the enemy and praise your way through the challenges…Your king awaits you, He is forever waiting for you to be ready to believe what He has spoken about you and He will prove it to you over and over again, I need you to have faith, He is not a liar, unlike the devil, your God doesn’t deceive.

(“For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword.” Hebrews 4:12)

Anything outside the presence of God is a danger to you. That relationship that doesn’t exalt God? It’s a danger to you. That business you are trying to run without Gods wisdom, is a danger to you, that friendship where you dont pray for each other, all you do is drink and talk about the world without mentioning the Master, is a danger to you, If it didn’t come from God, it will never benefit you in the long run, Its feeding your insecurities, its robbing you off beautiful things that God has set apart for you – Anything established out of Gods presence is a danger to you . Don’t let the devil trick you into stepping out of God’s will because you feel unworthy or overlooked. Be steadfast. God has made it easy to have faith in Him that even if it’s as small as a mustard seed, it can move mountains.

(“Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” (Matthew 17:20)

You are a child of God. He loves you fiercely, and He will move heaven and earth for you. It’s already a done deal that you are blessed. Stop believing the lies that things will never work out for you, that you’re always one step away from failure. When you start meditating on those lies, you give the devil power. But God says you are powerful, you have authority, and your name is spoken in places you haven’t even entered yet.

(“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.” (Ephesians 2:10)

You are blessed, this is your portion, your inheritance. You will make it, no matter what obstacles are in your way. God is with you, always has been, and always will be. Focus on His love, His power, and His promises, because He will never let you go. You are loved beyond measure, and nothing can change that.

XOXO

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Your people are for you

As I reflect on the words my aunt once spoke—”Don’t be friends with someone whom when R2 means something to you, to them it means nothing”—I realise how deeply they resonate. She only said them once, but they shaped my view of relationships and self-worth. Like many of us, I’ve made my share of mistakes, allowing people with nothing to lose to influence my decisions. They would walk away scot-free, while I was left to pick up the pieces. But from those moments of pain and loss, I learned one of life’s most valuable lessons: not everyone is meant to walk with you on your journey.

“Show me your friends, and I’ll show you your future. a powerful quote by motivational speaker John Rohn reminds us that the company we keep often shapes our destiny. I’ve have learned that keeping a small, intentional circle of friends isn’t isolation; it’s wisdom. Not everyone will understand your vision or your goals, and that’s okay. What matters is protecting your energy, guarding your dreams, and ensuring that those who walk with you are aligned with the path you’re on.

I knew from a young age that I wanted to go to university, further my studies, get a job, and be a role model for my siblings, I knew that I am a speaker, anything that had to do with public speaking, I was there, I knew that I love literature by how much I was attracted to books, I knew I loved art by just how much I love reading about artists and their paintings, I always had a vision of not only working for someone but creating my own thing, writing a book, owning an art gallery and maybe attend Essence, obviously because I don’t have any connections and inheritance obviously I need to be stable first, I need to make a few money and have an apartment and equipment to launch my other dreams (by the way, my birthday is in November and a new Sony Camera would be amazing, incase you want to get Pretty girl something) That vision required focus, and I couldn’t allow distractions to obstruct my dreams. Because of this, I was often labeled as distant or “boring.” I didn’t attend parties. I submitted my assignments on time. I stayed lowkey. And yes, it caused resentment among my peers. But I understood one thing clearly: purpose demands sacrifice. When you have a vision that burns inside of you, distractions become intolerable.

“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be,” said Ralph Waldo Emerson. Growing up, I decided to be different, and that difference often made me a target for gossip or ridicule. But in those moments, I reminded myself of the bigger picture. People may not understand why you choose the path less traveled, but when you are sure of who you are, their opinions become irrelevant. As the Bible reminds us, “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” (Jeremiah 29:11).

I am sensitive and soft-hearted, and to many, that seems like a weakness. But I’ve learned that my sensitivity is my strength. The smallest gestures bring me joy—an encouraging text, a simple hug—and they remind me that life’s beauty often lies in the little things. However, I’m also fiercely protective of myself. I fight for my well-being, and I’ve had to learn to defend myself. I may seem gentle, but when it comes to my peace and purpose, I will fight with everything I have.

“You have to learn to get up from the table when love is no longer being served.” — Nina Simone’s words often echo in my mind when I think of relationships that no longer serve me. I’ve had to walk away from people who didn’t see value in what I held dear. Not everyone will value marriage, family, or faith, but those are pillars in my life. I don’t apologise for standing firm in what I believe. As Proverbs 4:23 says, “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.” Guarding your heart means sometimes walking away from those who don’t honor what you cherish.

For me, family is everything. I come from a small, tight-knit family—my parents, my little brother, and myself. Though we have many relatives, it’s these three that ground me. I am the eldest, and much is expected of me. But I carry those responsibilities with pride. I understand that family is God’s gift, and I protect it fiercely. If family means nothing to you, you won’t understand how much it shapes my decisions or how deeply their well-being affects mine.

“God didn’t bring you this far to leave you.” — Joel Osteen. This truth has carried me through many dark moments when I’ve questioned why God made me the way I am. But then I remember that God doesn’t make mistakes. He created each of us uniquely, with our own strengths and flaws, to fulfill His purpose. Don’t let anyone make you feel like you need to change who you are to fit in. God sees you as “fearfully and wonderfully made” (Psalm 139:14). You are His creation, designed with intention and loved beyond measure.

Sometimes, we have to remind ourselves that not everyone is meant to understand our journey, and that’s perfectly fine. Your people will find you. They will love you, support you, and see the value in who you are. Until then, keep walking your path, aligned with your vision, and don’t let anyone pull you off course. Remember, you are not for everyone, but you are for the right ones.

“Your life is your story, and the adventure ahead of you is the journey to fulfill your own purpose and potential.” — Mel Robbins. Keep walking in faith, guided by the One who sees your heart and has plans for your future. Your people are for you. Trust that, and the right ones will stand by your side.

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FIRST BORN DAUGHTERS- THOSE Womb-MEN ARE BEAUTIFUL

Let’s address the elephant in the room right away: Yes, the title is correct. Firstborn daughters are often described as “beautiful but tough,” and here’s why. Being the firstborn daughter is like being handed the reins of a fast-moving horse—no training wheels, no crash course. You’ve got to figure it out as you go, and that process transforms you into a remarkable blend of grace and grit.

Firstborn daughters tend to inherit traits often associated with traditional male roles accompanied by leadership, assertiveness, and a mighty sense of responsibility. We come pre-loaded with a software package called “Deputy Parent Syndrome,” which comes with benefits such as stellar organisational skills and the ability to keep your cool while the rest of the family loses theirs or lose your mind when everyone else is sane over a matter.

If you’re thinking “But wait, doesn’t being tough mean we have to be a little less… feminine?” Not at all. Here’s the kicker: Our toughness doesn’t overshadow our inner beauty, we are beautiful-unhinged-tough people and somehow we make sense. We’ve been wired to nurture from the get-go. This nurturing instinct doesn’t just mean making sure everyone’s fed and happy; it also means stepping up when the going gets tough, handling responsibilities like a pro, and occasionally muttering “It’s fine, I’ve got this” while secretly wishing someone else would step in.

But here’s the hidden gem: beneath that tough exterior lies a softness that makes firstborn daughters exceptional mothers and partners. It’s like a well-guarded secret that only those who truly understand us get to witness. We can be fiercely protective and unwavering in our dedication, yet there’s an undeniable tenderness that surfaces when we care for those we love.

Firstborn daughters are driven by a deep desire for success, not just for personal achievements, but to provide for and take care of their families. This drive can make us incredibly focused and determined, sometimes to the point where we might take on a few too many responsibilities. Being honest, our physical strength is often a topic of playful banter. Who knew being a firstborn daughter would come with the ability to single-handedly move furniture, carry heavy grocery bags, and still have energy left to run a household? My strength is something of a wonder, I am like the shorter version of amazon women.

So why do girls mature faster than boys? it’s not just because of the social pressures or parental expectations. It’s a little science mixed with a lot of life experience. Girls generally develop their emotional intelligence earlier, which helps them navigate complex social situations with more finesse.

The result? Firstborn daughters often slip into parental roles faster than you can say “family responsibilities.” This maturity doesn’t just mean that we are the unofficial referees during sibling squabbles; it also means we often take on the role of a second parent. It’s like we’ve been programmed with a “parental default setting,” and while it sounds exhausting, it’s also incredibly empowering.

Here’s a little secret I learned from Ma’am Apostle “Girl, CHILL.” It sounds simple, but it’s revolutionary advice. Even as firstborn daughters with our innate drive and “Deputy Parent Syndrome,” it’s crucial to remember that the world won’t collapse if we take a breather. Sometimes, we need to loosen up and let ourselves off the hook. The universe might not implode if we let go of that tight grip we have on every detail.

In a way, this “alpha female” characteristic isn’t a curse—it’s a badge of honor. We’re built to handle pressure, lead with compassion, and juggle multiple roles like it’s an Olympic sport. Sure, it means we’re often the ones setting the bar high, but it also means we’re setting the stage for others to follow.

So, to all the firstborn daughters out there—own your beautiful toughness. Embrace the leadership qualities that come naturally, but remember, you don’t have to be in control all the time. Every once in a while, it’s perfectly okay to just be, to relax, and to let yourself be as fabulous and free as you deserve to be.