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Surrendering to God’s Gentle Protection

This might be the last post for October, and I pray to God that I can be as open and vulnerable as I need to be. Over the past few weeks, I’ve dedicated several writings to the Holy Spirit, even though it wasn’t as consistent as I had hoped. Life has been busy, with reports, AGMs, conferences, and submissions keeping me on my toes. But through it all, I remain steadfast, made of steel. So please, bear with me as I share from my heart.

To you reading this, I pray God’s everlasting love, joy, and peace surround you. I pray that you never doubt His presence in your life, His faithfulness, or His care. Know this: God answers. He is present in the moments that matter most, and He loves you deeply. I encourage you to surrender, release your pride, your need for control, and let God take the lead. From the time you wake up in the morning to when you lay your head down at night, may He fill your heart with the desires He has placed inside you. May your life be full of the love, joy, and happiness that only God can give.

These days, standing boldly in the Word of God is no easy task. The world tries to sway us, but I pray for your strength. I pray that you are filled with courage, that you stand tall as a child of God, unafraid to proclaim His name. “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9).

I pray that the prophetic anointing over my life flows into yours. May it run like oil, bringing vision, clarity, and direction. I speak the spirit of prophecy over you, may you see what others cannot see, may you speak with divine accuracy, and may you dream dreams that carry the mysteries of heaven. May the atmosphere shift to work in your favor because the Holy Spirit is leading you. God has called us to be ahead of time, to be informed of what’s to come so that we are never caught off guard. That is your inheritance as a child of God. Receive it.

And if your heart is fragile, like mine, know that I understand. I recently found myself asking God if I should stop caring so much, begging Him to make my heart hard, to numb the pain of disappointment and the sting of indifference. But in His gentle way, the Holy Spirit ministered to me through a sermon by Ms. Jackie Hill Perry. She shared how she, too, had built walls around her heart, believing she had to protect herself. But the Holy Spirit said to her, ““Jackie you know that your guardedness is there because your trauma has trained you to believe that you are the only one that can protect yourself, I will fight for you even emotionally I will vindicate you against people, you don’t have to guard your heart at all times because I am a defender of my people”

Those words hit me deeply. For so long, I’ve believed that if anyone posed a threat to my peace or disregarded my feelings, I needed to fight for myself, to protect my heart at all costs. I’ve been the one to apologise, to go the extra mile to make things right. But through this, I’ve learned that people are not always like me, and that’s okay. God is my defender. He guards the heart He gave me, a heart that loves deeply, feels deeply, and gives deeply.

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still” (Exodus 14:14).
This soft heart of mine, the one that sometimes feels like a burden, is not a mistake. God made it this way for a reason, and He will protect it. He will fight the battles I’ve spent too long fighting on my own. And if you’re like me, if you’ve struggled with this same fragility, I pray that you come to understand that God is also defending you. You are not too soft. You are exactly who He made you to be.

I’m grateful for the people God is placing in my life who hear me differently, who handle my heart with care, and who, like me, are persistent in love. God knows what He is doing, and I trust Him to continue working in ways that go beyond my understanding.

As I end this post, know that it has been a joy sharing with you about the Holy Spirit and hearing your perspectives as well. I pray this month has been as transformative for you as it has been for me. God is always speaking—may we continue to listen.

I love you all. Stay blessed.

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I can handle you

(To everyone who has felt like they are too hard to handle, the holy spirit is FOR YOU)

I came back home, guns blazing, ready for war.
Things have been chaotic, and now, I feel the madness creeping in.
I don’t want anyone around when I’m like this, no one stays anyway,
And I get it. It’s too much, even for me.

Lately, I’ve been dreaming of disappearing,
Of finding a place where no one can reach me.
I hate admitting how much its all frustrating, I am seeking for an escape
And no matter what I do, I can’t seem to get a grip.
It scares me, this fight I’m in, I don’t know when to stop, What worse…I don’t know how to stop
so much that my knees grow weak, and my will is fading, my sweat is turning into blood, my heart is working overtime keeping my pulse.

I’ve been reckless, changing lanes at 160 on a 100.
It’s a miracle I’m still here.
Too many close calls, like I’m testing God.
I feel most alive when my life’s on the line.
I hate it here, A battle between my mind and faith. feels like these thoughts consume me.
They don’t reflect the God I believe in.
I should know better, but the voices in my head scream louder than my faith.

The more I dwell on my inability to fight like a Christian,
The more I fear falling to my knees again.
I imagine God saying, “Here we go again, same old story.”

I’m a contradiction.
One moment, I shout, “There are no broken pieces here!”
The next, I’m drowning in my own tears and fears.
One minute, I’m raising a glass with friends, “Cheers!”
The next, I’m speaking to empty chairs. All the women inside of me are scared of me at this point

Call me Harley Quinn, but there are no jokes here. This is not a comic book, these are not just words.

We all need someone who stays,
Someone to stand by our side,
But the world doesn’t work that way.
People have conditions.
People can’t handle our walls.
When family crumbles and I fall apart,
That’s too much for them.

Just when I feel too much to handle,
The Spirit whispers, “I can handle you.”

The Holy Spirit says:

“I don’t just handle you, I see you.
And not only do I see you, but you make sense.
You’re never too much.
I’m not like man, I won’t turn away.
I am your Comforter, your Friend.
I am the One who gives you rest when your heart is heavy,
And joy in the morning.
I stay.
I stay when you don’t have time for Me.
I stay because I know your heart.
You are not what you go through,
Or what you think is wrong with you.
I can handle you, and I always have.
You are never too much for Me.”

This is for the women hoping for someone to stay, The men searching for someone who will understand them
For someone who won’t find them too much
Who sees the parts they whisper in prayer,
Begging God to fix.
The Holy Spirit can handle you,
You’re not too much.
You’re not too vulnerable or too sensitive.
You are God’s creation, and you are very good.
Your Father approves of you.

You think you are too much? even too much is not enough…He can handle you, LET HIM

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happy New Month

The past few days have been bitterly cold here in the Free State, and today was no different. I thought long and hard about what to wear and finally settled on my trusty jeans, paired with my red jacket and combat boots, and off I went. Lately, I’ve been longing to get my hair braided, but this weather has kept me away from the salon, the thought of having cold water running down my head sends shivers through me. So for now, I’ll keep rocking my curly weave until it’s warm enough for those braids. This morning, I reached for my first pair of jeans, only to find the zipper broken. I tried another pair, but they tore on the side. My conclusion? My jeans have definitely shrunk. Of course, I’m blaming the washing machine! I didn’t beat myself up about it. I didn’t criticise my body or cry about my weight, I just need to join the gym, or have a routine and we will be okay to go, I am learning how to be gentle with me so I accepted it with grace, made the best of what I had, and moved on.

Last month was a hard one for me. I cried more than I would have liked to admit. Things were happening all around me, and I often felt like I was barely treading water. But I kept swimming, even when I was running on empty. One of my biggest challenges is that I don’t always open up deeply about what I’m going through, I tend to share only the highlights, thinking that’s enough. But deep down, I knew I was carrying more than I let on. So this month, I had a heart-to-heart with God and the many women within me, and we made a decision: we’re going to let go, relax, and trust that God has it all under control. Even though there is much to do at work and with our studies, we will handle it all with grace. its safe to say we adjourned the meeting in good terms, my soul, my mind, my heart and God are all in sync (its amazing how a sincere conversation with God changes everything)

As we step into October, I hope you take a moment to slow down, just as I’m trying to. I hope you give yourself permission to make mistakes and take everything one step at a time. I’ve always been in a rush, whether driving or walking, I’m constantly on the go. But this month, I pray that God blesses you with people who will teach you how to walk slow, how to find peace in the stillness. If you’re like me and feel the need to get everything done at once, I pray God sends you the kind of help that comes with humility, kindness, and true support, the kind of help that lifts you up without needing recognition.

Be gentle with yourself this month. You’re doing the best you can with what you have, and I pray God provides you with all the resources and support you need. May you never feel alone or stranded. May you always have more reasons to rejoice than to cry, and may you never have to carry life’s burdens on your own. Just as Jesus had help carrying the cross, may you always have someone by your side to share the load when things get heavy.

I pray that this new month brings an overflow of God’s grace upon your life. May you be covered in grace so abundant that it shields and protects you from the things you cannot see. From the words spoken in places you’ve never been, from the plans meant to harm you, may God’s grace cover you completely.

I pray that God fulfills your wildest dreams, the ones you think are too big or too crazy. May He show you that nothing is impossible for Him, and may He exceed all your expectations. May you witness doors opening for you in unimaginable ways, may people of influence take notice of you, and may you be surrounded by those who value and respect you. As you go in and out this month, know that you are blessed, know that you are loved.

Here’s to a beautiful October filled with grace, joy, and peace.

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Divine Relationships and Self-Acceptance

Have you ever felt the need to pretend to be someone you’re not, just to fit in or to be loved? If so, I want to share a profound truth with you: God cannot bless the person you pretend to be. The divine relationships we all yearn for require us to be our authentic selves and to believe that who we are is good enough.

It’s important to realise that you don’t have to break yourself for attention and care. The right people will give you their time without you having to compromise who you are. It’s not a gamble; it’s about waiting for those who see your worth.

Relationships should not hurt. If they do, it’s a sign that they’re not meant for you. Love should not belittle you or make you feel unsafe. If it does, it might be time to consider letting it go.

You should never feel bad about being who you are, the way God made you. Don’t try to control the unchangeable aspects of yourself just because someone else prefers you a certain way. If they make you feel bad for things you can’t change—like your family, your past, the way you walk, or how you talk—it’s time to walk away.

I remember a song by Macklemore with a line that always resonated with me: “I can’t change, even if I tried, even if I wanted to.” As a young person, I struggled with the desire to fit the mold others had for me. I knew I was different, and it took me time to find my tribe and to embrace the term “nerd.” It was then that I felt normal, like I existed. I found the courage to stop fitting into spaces that rejected me, unless God permitted it for a reason.

My life changed when I realised that there are people praying to encounter someone like me—the original me, with all my baggage and my raging mind. There are people out there who are praying to meet someone like you, flaws and all, as a friend, a business partner, a mentor, or even a spouse. God has been preparing someone to handle you, to address you, to create a safe space for you when you need it. God will never set you up for failure.

Why would you believe that God will align you with people who make you feel you need to be at a certain level to be loved and appreciated? Don’t you know that even at your lowest, He still loves you and thinks you are the best? Why would He put you in a position that makes you feel like you are not enough? You are His beautiful creation. The Bible says, “You are beautifully and wonderfully made” (Psalm 139:14, NIV). When God mentions the good plans He has for you, do you believe they incorporate abuse?

I pray that you see yourself the way God sees you, and then you will understand that you have always been enough. God will never cause pain without allowing something better to be born (Isaiah 66:9). Don’t let the betrayals, the abuse, or the negative words define you or delay your healing and new beginnings.

Forgive yourself for who you were when you didn’t know better, for what you allowed when you were broken, for the trauma bonds, for the stupid decisions, for the times you stayed, for changing who you are because you wanted to be desperately loved. Forgive yourself for taking for granted what God has made in you, for playing small when God has created so much in you, for settling for less when God has great plans for you.

Now that you have learned your lesson, understand that God has made you perfect. There is nothing in you that disqualifies you from receiving the best of what God has to offer. Stay close to Him, and He will direct you to the kind of relationships you need. You will understand there was nothing wrong with you from the beginning.

May God grant you the ability to meet people who will change your life, bring out the best in you, restore your faith in humanity, and make you realise that all good gifts come from the Father, so that you may seek Him.

And may God hide you, protect you from people who come to steal, lie, destroy, and cheat. May that never be your portion. May you be in the company of people who make you feel loved, appreciated, and cared for—people who make you better, who water you, who will love you in every shape or form, who will make you better.

NB: I am not only refereeing to romantic relationships here, for those of you who love the feeling of love, this is broader than romantic relationships

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Happy Valentines day everybody, after Easter this is my favourite day, let me tell you why:

My name means Love (Valentines is all about love) and I was conceived in February, the month of love, I was born in November, the 11 month and  11 has great significance in love and can indicate a spiritual connection and encourage you to listen to your heart, You see? I am a bubble filled with love,.

I love love and everything that has to do with it. I love it when someone falls in love, I love to witness love unfold right before my eyes, I feel like love is one feeling we love to hate, love to give up on but it never dies, no matter how hard we try to bury it, love is just undefeated.

So this year, I hope with everything that happens in your life, that will take your time, that you find time to love, to truly be in love, not tolerance or pretend kind of love, but genuine, pure love that asks for nothing from you but yourself. Don’t spend even 1 minute of your time trying to prove to someone how good you are to deserve their love, never force your love on anyone, allow the people who will love you without you even trying to get your affection and love you.

Sometimes its hard to love when you are broken, especially when you feel like there is no love to give or you don’t deserve to receive love, its in these times when you need to go back to the source of love, let Him put you back together again and He will put you safely in the hands of a love that wont break you again. God is love and God wants you to feel love, not question if it is love, the bible says that perfect love drives out fear and no love is perfect like the Fathers love because it forgives sin and it takes away our shame BUT WHEN YOU RECEIVE THIS LOVE you are then made perfect in Him, so do yourself a favour, find God who is perfect in love to receive a perfect love, IT DOES EXIST.

Don’t pray for good love and then still believing that it doesn’t exist, you can not pray for a good man and believe they don’t exist at the same time, they do; My good man of God exists, and I know this because I exist too, a good woman of God. If God can make me, then there is a million of us the same, GOOD GOD LOVING PEOPLE.

There is love all around you, I pray God opens your heart so you may see it, and if there is a love taken away from you, I pray for restoration, if there is a love you missed because you were not ready, May God restore and multiple you.

May you be surrounded with love this Month and forever more

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Pouring into me

I pray that I become wiser, softer and peaceful, I pray that I become gentle towards myself, that I give myself a break, some credit and a lot of love.

I pray that I let go, especially of the things I can not control, and enjoy the moments I prayed for, I don’t want to keep thinking of where I could have been but I want to be thankful of where I am because it took so much out of me to here.

I pray that one day I will be fully okay with myself, that I would be okay with the things I have done when I didn’t know better, the bad choices I made, the way I behaved, I hope I forgive myself everyday and acknowledge that I am growing into myself and this is my first life, I am doing the best I can.

I pray that I just love my life, even when some events don’t make sense, even if I feel overwhelmed, even if I have so much to work on, may I be deeply in love with my scars, my mind, the things I know and the way I am, May I know that I am good enough and I am everything a woman should be to deserve kindness, respect and opportunities.

I pray I may be a good friend, sister and daughter, I want to bring light to the people attached to me, I want to be their peace of mind, I want them to feel safe around me. I want to understand my people, I don’t want them to feel judge, so may God grant me the gift of patience and love, I don’t want to make my family or friends feel half-loved by me, I want to fully represent my name.

I pray that I become the best in what I do, that my work may never require corrections, that I may not be lazy or scared, but always give my best. I pray that I perform in excellence, I may be exceptional and professional. I pray I reach every target, every goal, every milestone, every time, and that I may be recognised for my good work and passion, I really pray that this year, everything I touch turns into gold, I pray that I may walk in rooms I only thought of, I pray my name gets mentioned for good by people I don’t even know, that I may be well represented.

I pray that I may be a good partner to the person God finds fit for me, I pray that I may treat him like a king, make him feel like a king, I pray I may know how to handle him in his best and in his worst and never cease to see beneath his courage. May I be a woman he trusts enough to confide in, to share secrets with, to be vulnerable with, may I be a woman he finds a home in. I pray I become gentle and kind towards him, I pray that there will never be a day where I make him question his worth as a man. May I be the kind of woman he has been praying for.

I pray for the children I don’t have yet, my brilliant, respectful and God fearing champs, may my kids never fall into the trap of the devil, may they serve God, I stand against the spirit of confusion, my babies will not confuse their gender and identify as anything they are not. They will be healthy, beautiful and brave. I am going to give birth to the whole move of Christ at the right time, Me and their father (my husband) are going to give them a wholesome family, create an atmosphere of love and trust in our household. May God give me the strength to give them the best education and a great life. May my mini me’s be of one man, this I plead…that they may be fathered by one man, my husband.

May it be so and not otherwise, Amen